Minsan

Minsan, naaalala ko pa rin ang noon. Noong tayo pa. Naalala hindi dahil gusto ko pang ibalik kung ano ang meron tayo noon. Naalala, kasi isa iyong malaking parte ng buhay ko.

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Minsan, naaalala ko noong ang saya-saya pa natin. Noong parang napakagaan lang ng lahat kapag kasama kita. Namamasyal. Naglalaro. Nagkukwentuhan. Nagkukulitan.

Minsan, naalala ko pa noong naging ikaw lang ang mundo ko. Sa bawat araw, sa’yo umikot ang buhay ko. Noong mga panahong parang di kumpleto ang araw ko kapag di kita kasama.

Minsan, naaalala ko noong nagdesisyon tayong maging tatlo, at nasundan pa agad ng isa. Mga panahong lalong ibinigay ko ang buong puso ko para sa inyong tatlo. Ngunit…

Minsan, naaalala ko kung paanong unti-unti kang lumalayo. Makalwang-araw… Isang linggo… Makalwang linggo… Buwan… Mga buwan… Hanggang naging taon… Ika’y naglaho. Naglaho mula sa aming tabi.

Minsan, may kirot pa rin.

Minsan, masakit pa rin.

Minsan, naiisip ko, saan nga ba ako nagkulang? Nagkulang ba ako sa pag-aalaga? Nagkulang ba ako sa pang-unawa? Nagkulang ba ako sa panahon?

Minsan, naiisip ko rin, baka naman sumobra ako? Pero saang banda? Ang mahalin ka ng sobra?

Minsan, sinisisi ko ang sarili ko. Sinisisi na hindi ko nabigyan ng buong pamilya hanggang sa huli ang dalwang munti. Isang buong pamilya na hinahangad at pinagdarasal ng lahat.

Minsan, nalulungkot pa rin ako. Nalulungkot, nag-iisip kung bakit humantong sa ganito.

Gano’n pa man… Nagpapasalamat ako sa mga alaala ng nakaraan. Marami akong natutunan. Mas naging matatag ako. Mas tumibay ang paniniwala ko sa nasa Itaas.

Salamat…sa minsang ikaw.

3 Steps to Move On

And the wind whispered to me saying, “You don’t need that kind of love.”

Closure happens right after you accept that letting go and moving on is more important than projecting a fantasy of “how the relationship could have been”. Never ask why someone keeps hurting you. Do you know what you should ask? “WHY YOU KEEP LETTING THEM.” How can we let the wound heal if we keep on touching it? Same thing with relationships, if it didn’t work and you really have to part ways after all the efforts, let it be…LET IT GO.

There are 3 steps to move on that I will share with you. And these are right there in your keyboard…

 

CTRL Control

⇒ Control yourself.

ALT – Alternate

⇒ Look for an alternate solution.

DEL Delete

⇒ Delete the situation that hurts you.

 

It may be the hardest thing you could ever do but it will be worth it. It could be very painful but you just have to be strong to let go. And in the end, you’ll be very proud of what you did. You did something for yourself. You simply gave yourself some respect. We may have loved the wrong person, cry for the wrong person, but one thing is for sure, mistakes will help us find the right person someday. Bear in mind that it is better to end something and start another than to imprison yourself in hoping  for the impossible.

Start a new hobby. Read a book. Focus on your work. Enjoy your time with your family, with your kids (if you have). Join different activities. Pamper yourself in a spa, massage or salon. Make yourself feel better. Keep yourself busy.

And of course, PRAY. Pray and ask for guidance that you’ll be able to handle what you’re going through very well. Have you watched the McDonald’s commercial last month?

 

 

It is not easy to detach from someone you’ve had close ties with, but sometimes, it’s necessary to restore your sanity. YOUR MIND PEACE.

 

“I’m learning to love the sound of my feet walking away from things  not meant for me.”