Minsan

Minsan, naaalala ko pa rin ang noon. Noong tayo pa. Naalala hindi dahil gusto ko pang ibalik kung ano ang meron tayo noon. Naalala, kasi isa iyong malaking parte ng buhay ko.

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Minsan, naaalala ko noong ang saya-saya pa natin. Noong parang napakagaan lang ng lahat kapag kasama kita. Namamasyal. Naglalaro. Nagkukwentuhan. Nagkukulitan.

Minsan, naalala ko pa noong naging ikaw lang ang mundo ko. Sa bawat araw, sa’yo umikot ang buhay ko. Noong mga panahong parang di kumpleto ang araw ko kapag di kita kasama.

Minsan, naaalala ko noong nagdesisyon tayong maging tatlo, at nasundan pa agad ng isa. Mga panahong lalong ibinigay ko ang buong puso ko para sa inyong tatlo. Ngunit…

Minsan, naaalala ko kung paanong unti-unti kang lumalayo. Makalwang-araw… Isang linggo… Makalwang linggo… Buwan… Mga buwan… Hanggang naging taon… Ika’y naglaho. Naglaho mula sa aming tabi.

Minsan, may kirot pa rin.

Minsan, masakit pa rin.

Minsan, naiisip ko, saan nga ba ako nagkulang? Nagkulang ba ako sa pag-aalaga? Nagkulang ba ako sa pang-unawa? Nagkulang ba ako sa panahon?

Minsan, naiisip ko rin, baka naman sumobra ako? Pero saang banda? Ang mahalin ka ng sobra?

Minsan, sinisisi ko ang sarili ko. Sinisisi na hindi ko nabigyan ng buong pamilya hanggang sa huli ang dalwang munti. Isang buong pamilya na hinahangad at pinagdarasal ng lahat.

Minsan, nalulungkot pa rin ako. Nalulungkot, nag-iisip kung bakit humantong sa ganito.

Gano’n pa man… Nagpapasalamat ako sa mga alaala ng nakaraan. Marami akong natutunan. Mas naging matatag ako. Mas tumibay ang paniniwala ko sa nasa Itaas.

Salamat…sa minsang ikaw.

When the Love is Gone

Well, I guess, 90% knows and experienced the trauma of not having a happy ending. Yung fact na you have given that person o yung relationship n’yo ng chance…after chance..after chance. T-R-A-U-M-A. Unti-unti mong nararamdaman na nawawala na yung love. Ano’ng natira? Traces and shadows of pain.

 

Alam kong madaling sabihin pero mahirap (sobrang hirap) gawin, pero wala ka naman talagang ibang choice kundi ang mag-MOVE ON.

 

The first question is, “How willing are you to move on?”

 

ACCEPTANCE.

 

Kailangan mong tanggapin na wala na talaga. Kailangang tanggapin na hindi talaga kayo para sa isa’t-isa. Ganun talaga eh. Kailangang tanggapin na TAPOS NA. Yes, it damn hurts, but you have to be strong.

 

Aminin mo, maraming beses mong pinagbigyan na magiging okay ang relasyon n’yo. Umasa ka na kaya pang magawan ng paraan. Kaso, minsan, obvious na naman na di na talaga pwede… IPINIPILIT mo lang. Ikaw lang yung TANGA na ayaw pang mag-move on. Bitaw na… TAMA NA.

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How to Cope Up with Your Emotions

Problems and trials in life are everywhere. Some may have lighter problems than the others but yes, ALL of us are battling with different problems.

Sometimes, we experience problems that seems unbearable that we become too depressed and hopeless. Some are brave enough to fight until the end, and sadly, some give up and commit suicide. I admit that there are a lot of times that I feel to do the latter. It’s REALLY HARD. And as the cliché goes, “No one understands you unless they are in the situation.” TRUE! It may seem so easy to give advice and stuffs but once they are in, it’s the time they feel and realize how hard to manage it.

But what if you are like me? I am the type of person who doesn’t easily tell everyone how I feel or what I’ve been going through. It’s always me and me alone. I feel more secured and comfortable with that. And when all the problems and anger have been filled up, I BURST. That’s the negative part of it. But I still choose to handle it alone.

We all struggle to keep cool and smile in all sorts of situations that are happening to us. And how do we cope up with our crazy emotions when we experience overwhelming problems? I may not be an expert but let me share with you some tips on how can we AT LEAST TRY to deal with our emotions.

SUICIDE will never be an option or a solution. Above all, NEVER forget to PRAY and ask for HIS guidance so that you may surpass all the trials that you encounter.